I don’t trust anyone.
What a week we have had with a State of the Union address on Tuesday night, complete with drama, then an impeachment vote on Wednesday. I have been hearing a lot of people talk about not being able to trust the government.
In addition, I have been hearing a lot of people talk about struggling to trust people. Husbands let their wives down, and vice versa. Friends disappoint. Romantic relationships disintegrate. Let’s face it. We can’t trust people, and oftentimes we are the person who let the other down.
In the midst of these conversations, I have been contending with various insurance companies all week, appealing the decisions of people, finding their errors, and supplying endless documentation to those who keeping asking for more. I have always struggled with what I perceive as heartless institutions with people who don’t know me, yet have the power to greatly impede my life with their decisions. Needless to say, the struggle to trust has been particularly near and dear this week.
How can we stay calm in all of this?
To me, there is only one way to remain stable and calm in this chaotic world, and that is to not trust any of it.
I don’t trust anyone or anything.
Don’t get me wrong. We all trust in something. If not people or government or institutions, then what?
Therefore, preparing your minds for action, and being sober-minded, set your hope fully on the grace that will be brought to you at the revelation of Jesus Christ.
1 Peter 1:13
Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I entrust my life.
In peace I will lie down and sleep, for you alone, LORD, make me dwell in safety.
I trust God.
And only God. Sure, I don’t do it perfectly, but over the years I have gravitated more toward shifting all of my trust in God, not some of it.
- I don’t trust my husband. I trust God with my husband.
- I don’t trust my children. I trust God with my children.
- I don’t trust my employer. I trust God with my employer.
- I don’t trust my church. I trust God with my church.
And the list goes on.
Make your own list. Make it long.
So what does that look like in real life when things go well?
My husband and I are working together on some financial issues right now and our perspectives on money can differ. While I was at work this week, he made some decisions without me. When he told me his decisions, I was able to calmly say, “No problem. I support that,” because I never was trusting him. I am trusting God to get us through the financial mire, and God is steering us through.
What does that look like in real life when things go poorly?
One night this week my son struggled to speak to me respectfully, and in the midst of those struggles I opened an emergency room bill in the mail for $1,000. What we thought might have been a broken ankle had turned out to be a very expensive sprain. Several things were going wrong emotionally for me that evening. For one, I was slipping into fear that my son was not going to turn into a fine young man if he didn’t learn to treat people respectfully! In other words, I was making this one evening of his life the deciding factor in determining whether he was going to be a success or failure in life. Please tell me I am not the only parent who has done that.
Secondly, I have already voiced my lack of trust in all things bureaucratic in this post, so I struggle with financial surprises as well, particularly ones that come in the mail from hospitals and banks. The combination of these two dynamics caused me to collapse emotionally. I took my son to Wal-Mart to get snacks for a church retreat this weekend. What should have been a smiled-filled errand turned out to be a quiet one. Mom was emotionally distracted and quiet instead of engaged and joyful.
But because I have been practicing placing my faith in God alone, not people or a checking account, I caught things quickly. Within thirty minutes, I confessed to God my lack of trusting Him with my finances and with my son’s future. Then apologized to my son, and it was all over. Smiles and joy returned. The bill was placed on my desk to deal with on Monday.
My trust returned to God.
Let’s not trust a thing this week. Just Him.
Picture Explanation: It snowed. Doesn’t happen much around here, so we enjoyed watching it come down in big, fluffy puff-balls for a few hours.
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